After a year. (changes)

After a year of that journal I made already a year ago. a journal a decision that have marked my life in many ways.
I've been walking without a destination.I've been walking without a destination.
during al these years of drawing and painting, I've seen my skill change a lot and one of the main reason is because I started studying more anatomy looking form other sources of inspiration then I came back to my art and it improved, but with every year that passed I felt less and less excited about drawing the same character type in the same format, same colours with some changes to represent other characters, I lied somehow to myself that this is the way I should work, I created my own safe zone, my shield, drawing the same stuff not taking risks, saying to myself , someday the moment will come when I'll draw something different, but never gave the change to let it grow.
when I started doing life drawings I felt different, I did it first to learn the anatomy, but I found something better,  I felt really like an artist, never felt like that before, I never went to a school to learn how to draw. I realised  I've been missing

this year that will end soon has been a one of the most wonderful experiences I have had, all those dreams and thoughts of being a real artist have been fulfilled after a year taking multiple classes meeting amazing artists, I could have never dream of metting, friends with the same passion and drive, motivation to keep me going for forever, I've found all of that, in one year adventure.

the previous year I said I wanted to be a concept artist and that was my goal, but I've found that I can't stop exploring and trying new things, which has changed they way I do my artwork and made me see that animation art is where I want to go, and where i'm going, amazing artist like Shyoon Kim, Tron Mai, Jay Oliva, Mark McDonnell, Andrew Cawrse and many more have influenced my life in a way I never though before it could happen.

SO, what happen at the end. I've found my passion for storyboarding and character design for animation, I've found the feeling in my heart rushing when I made the right line the right angle and pressure the right emotion , when I put my soul and mind into my pencil. its something I've never experienced before but it's that climax that comes close to sex.

So for those out there who have read my journal and are still finding a way, or are chilling out seining my progress, I invite you to take that big decision that scare you to dead and learn, study and let your self being taught, drop all that bullshit your brain is giving you and is making you slow. and do what you really want, we only live once!

I did it and I'm having the best time of my life, and as Glen Keane wrote in my paper, Keep drawing with your heart! I will Glen! I will.